Jesus doesn't care about grades.

I know it's been over a year since I've blogged, but I figured the middle of finals was as good a time as any to share a few thoughts I've been mulling over in my head. I could've posted this on my childishly emotional tumblr account, but I think that one is a little outdated. So I decided to start a new blog... one that would match the woman I'm growing into.

Anyone who's been around me the past few weeks has heard me talk about my new outlook on life. An outlook which all stemmed from a tweet I read one night. It said, (and I quote), "JESUS DOESN'T CARE ABOUT GRADES." It came from one of those funny twitter accounts, and while I'm sure it was meant to be taken in a light-hearted way, I took it as a very literal statement. And this statement opened my eyes up to a few other things. (Warning: the next few paragraphs are my personal view of MY faith, and what my personal relationship with Christ is showing me. I'm by no means trying to preach at anyone, just sharing my thoughts about life with whoever wants to read them.)

As a student I spend so much time living up to society's vision of where I need to be in life. Everyone around me always shares the same common pieces of advice: finish school, make good grades, get a job, make sure you're saving your money, and enjoy school while you can.

And like every other normal college student my age, this advice is always lurking in the back of my mind. Kind of like a reminder of what I'm supposed to be doing. Or how I should be acting. Or where I should be at this very moment in my life . These reminders are set as a standard by society that we as young adults are supposed to follow. But what if this plan isn't what God wants for us? And what if these things that society tells us to focus on aren't things He would want us to focus on at all? It just makes you wonder what matters... because in the great grand scheme of things, Jesus really doesn't care about grades.

The more I read into my faith the more I also realize I'm doing other things wrong, too. I'm making idols out of everyday things, but these things aren't focused on God at all. Example? I'm a list-maker. I will put EVERY single thing I have to do in a list. I focus on that list all day until I feel I've worked through everything that needs to be done. I read it multiple times a day, making sure I'm planning my day around what is written on it. Everything I do revolves around these lists. 

Now what if I replaced the word "list" in those last few sentences with "bible?" I can't even imagine how my days would play out  if that was what I was putting first in my life every day. It's a good reminder of what I should be focusing on.

I know I'm not supposed to know how my life's going to end up. And I've found a whole lot of comfort in knowing that He's got it figured out. It makes me stress so much less. In fact, it reminds me not to stress at all. So during these next few days I'm going to take these words to heart, and realize that there's a much greater plan for my life than I think - and I bet none of this plan is resting on the grade I make in my Spanish class.